Darkest before Dawn

When I was in college the adults I would meet would say that those four years would be the best of my life. The collegiate realm is filled with comfort, but the rest of the world is hard and unforgiving. Soon I would have to be working for a living, paying taxes and trying to make ends meet.

This year will be five years out of school. Sure the initial transition was hard, I spent a couple years forgetting some of my bad habit, remember what I believed in and harder than all the rest of them, learning to structure my own life, create my own goals, define my own assignments. Some days are hard, today I learned I didn't get an full-time job opening at my eternal place of part-time employment. Three years of loyalty and I am still out in the cold, but what I found to be funny was that I didn't care. I have bigger dreams than that place, I have bigger ambitions than what they might or might not be willing to give me. I am determined to make my own stars.

So five years have past and I stand today on ground forged by me, surrounded by things I have made, modified or fixed, friends that would give everything if asked, and an incredibly strong sense of self. Sure I have made some mistakes, but none that I regret and the hardships I face are just puzzles to be solved, the people I meet a chance for new experiences. Every day I walk home looking at the world around me, happy and proud, with a little smile on my face. Tonight as I sit and type this I smile and enjoy the descending night, knowing that even at it's worse, tomorrow will be better than today and today was perfect.

Hoka Hay...

A Paradox

While I believe that anyone can learn anything to full comprehension, I am still unconvinced that it is possible to know everything. So what is the sum of the parts?